Tuesday, January 31, 2017

Out of the Valley

The winter is a valley, with the solstice resting in darkness at the bottom. I always count backwards and forwards as we pull away from it. Now we have gotten as far from the solstice as early November. Soon we will have passed the three darkest months and climbed back out into the daylight.

Already it stays light until almost time to fix supper. I don't have to rush to walk the puppy the instant I get home from work. I am terrible at naming birds by their songs, but something is singing that wasn't a few weeks ago, that on a level below knowledge tells me that spring is coming.

After some more or less easy terrain, we will come to the mountain peak of the summer solstice when the days are so long that sleep is difficult and we seldom see the stars. And then down again.

Without homeschooling I feel a little adrift. DOB and I visited a used bookstore and I didn't know what to do with myself. For the past decade I've always been on the lookout for books for school. And homeschooling moms read the most interesting books and have the most interesting conversations. I hang out on the fringes of the conversation but it's not *my* conversation anymore. I'm not making plans for next term or next year. I'm not pondering how to ease a child through a rough spot. There's homework to help with, some (usually only Dot has any), but it's not at all the kind of work I would choose for them. 

I'm not even reading very discussable books at the moment. I'm tired and my brain is fried and Duchess and Deux always want me to try out their latest middle-grade fantasy series. 

I even tried doing a google search for people who weren't homeschooling but wished they were, but all I could find was advocacy articles on either side. And I am tired of people dividing themselves up into camps and shouting at each other. (Law is like that a bit, I guess, but on most cases and with most fellow practitioners we know there's weaknesses and strengths on both sides and our ultimate goal is to find resolution, not prove our moral superiority by the loudness and frequency of our speech.)

Truth be told, I do like practicing law. Even litigation. This past month I've had my first trial (a very small one) and first deposition. It's fun. And exhausting. It's hard to balance with coming home to a family but we are working to figure it out and hopefully DOB and I will be able to take turns being the exhausted one.


Darren said...

I like depositions! Trials, not so much.

Here's hoping you find a good book club.

Diary of an Autodidact said...

Fortunately, there should be book clubs that consist of non-homeschoolers too. (Actually, people without kids should arguably have more time to read, right?) I'll second what Darren said: here's hoping you find a good one!

And, for what it's worth, count me as a homeschool parent who fully supports you and other parents with kids who are not homeschooled.

Uglemor said...

I so feel with you. I always was a homeschooler at heart, but partly because of the legislation in my country, party because of my poor health, I never actually did homeschool any of my children - except for some glorious months 3 years ago when the teachers went on a strike. http://krydderuglen.blogspot.dk/2013/04/hjemmeskole-homeschooling.html I can recommend Sue Elvis' blog on homeschooling and suchlike. I learnt heaps from her, and she does not look askance at un-home-wannabe-whatever-schoolers ;)
Good luck with climbing the hills of spring.